Insomnia! How I hate it. The night closes in like a black, sticky, toxic cloud, bringing with it all manner of prickly little horrors.
Five things I regret having done
- Leaving a perfectly fine husband
- Leaving my son behind
- Not being with my mother when she was dying
- Having agreed to go to the University of Arizona, not insisting on Cal Berkeley
- Majoring in French
Five things I wish other people hadn’t done
- My mother: smoking herself into the grave
- My father: bringing us to Arizona
- My son: taking up smoking
- My father: disinheriting me
- My fellow Americans: voting for George Bush and his cronies
Five things I could have done better
- Focused on a real career
- Been a better mother
- Been a better daughter
- Been a better wife
- Taken control of my life sooner
Five characteristics I would be better without
- Preference for solitude
- Habit of taking the path of least resistance
- Laziness
- Self-indulgence
- Insecurity
Five characteristics that redound to my benefit (there must be somethinggood here)
- Self-discipline
- Writing skills
- Literacy
- Some degree of intelligence
- Ability to be self-starting
Five small things that make life better
- The company of dogs
- The company of friends
- My son in a positive mood
- A lovely morning
- Flowers
Five things that scare the sh*t out of me
- Old age
- The U.S. economy and the decline of America
- The state of health care in America
- The ascendancy of the right wing and the injection of religion into secular politics
- Climate change
Five things we could have more of
- Swimming in the pool
- Walking in the desert
- Friends
- Wine
- Good food
Five things I could do without
- Greed
- Morons
- Ambient noise
- Work
- Insomnia!
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Our brain usually works extra-hard at night, and not often in a positive way… It’s good to look back and analyze sometimes but don’t be too hard on yourself
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I quit smoking. It’s true, though, it puts me in a permanent bad mood.
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LOL! The aged mom is glad to see the smokes go but sorry to hear of the dysphoria. Occasionally you seem to slip though, and actually are…well, cheerful.