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There but for the Grace of God…

Here’s a hair-raising story of not just one but several formerly middle-class Americans who today are living out of their cars. The issue has become so dire in California that a nonprofit in Santa Barbara has arranged with various owners of large parking lots to provide “safe” space for people to car-camp. Meanwhile, so much as a whiff of the word “homeless” makes it even more difficult—indeed, pretty much impossible—for these once decently earning workers and small-business owners to get jobs.

Looking at photos of Janis Adkins trying to make a home in the back of a Toyota Sienna—which happens to be the make and model of the Dog Chariot, though hers is newer than mine—I thought, holy Christ! How lucky am I not to be walking in her shoes! Like Adkins, I’ve never been able to get another real job; not for any lack of trying, either. But at least I’m still in my home.

So…what happened that kept a roof over my head while she was being put out on the street?

Well, I think it’s a combination of a few decisions made, long ago, that happened to be right (even though they were questionable at the time), raw luck, and social safety nets that kicked in just in the nick of time.

The Decisions

The big decision, maybe the only smart one I’ve made since I left my husband, was to pay off my house.

One day while I was tooling up the freeway, a little revelation dawned: once the alimony ran out, the mortgage on my home would consume over half my net income, which was, shall we say, not very generous to begin with. I was just getting by on a combination of the alimony and net pay for a full-time, non-tenure-track teaching position at the Great Desert University. In fact, most months I ran a little in the red. With the alimony gone, my salary would not cover the mortgage payments and put food on the table. I needed to pay off the $80,000 mortgage as fast as I could: clear it off the books before I had to rely on salary alone to live.

A small inheritance from my father, another from a remote aunt, plus some other money I then had in short-term corporate bonds would close that debt. My financial adviser had a freaking kitten when I told him I intended to cash out those investments and pay them toward the house. “You’re over-invested in real estate,” said he (my 403(b) owned an REIT), “and it wouldn’t be a good idea to pay off the mortgage.”

Right.

So I went right ahead and did it.

Eight or ten years later, I sold that house and used the cash to buy a comparable house in a quieter, better-kept part of the neighborhood, with a pool, a larger lot, and lots of upgrades. Selling price of the old house was more than twice what I paid for it.

If I hadn’t had that cash to buy this house, I’d be up to my nose in debt today, since it also cost more than twice what I paid for the first shack. And if I’d owed money to a bank at the time GDU canned me and all my staff, I probably couldn’t have paid it. Almost certainly, by now I would have lost my home, and I, too, could be living in a minivan under some parking-lot’s trees.

Other lucky/wise decisions:

Bought a Toyota. Today, when I can’t afford to buy a newer car, it’s 12 years old, has 112,000 miles on it, and still runs like a top.
Got in the habit of living frugally. Not being able to go out to eat, to take a trip, to afford cable or a cell phone, to see a movie or go to a concert: none of those is much of a hardship, because I didn’t do those things in the first place.
Didn’t get another big dog. Few things will empty your bank account faster than the cost of owning large dogs. Especially German shepherds…
Banked at a credit union, which did not then and still does not inflict nicks and gouges for the privilege of letting them invest my money.
Refinanced the house my son and I were co-purchasing through the credit union, which made a loan modification as soon as we told them I was out of work.

Raw Luck

The expensive dogs were gone by the time I lost my job. Not that I wanted to lose them. But today I couldn’t even begin to pay the vet and drug bills for the German shepherd. I’d have had to find another home for her, had she still been living when GDU canned me.

The university laid me off on the last day that people were eligible for the 50% COBRA discount.

My health was good, my teeth were good, and I already had all the pairs of glasses and contact lenses I needed.

My car, all the appliances in the house, and the air conditioner were running well.

A hailstorm wrecked the roof and the ancient air-conditioner, causing the homeowner’s insurance carrier to replace both of those very expensive items, each of which will probably last as long as I’m likely to stay in the house.

The Social Safety Nets

No way could I have afforded health insurance if I’d had to pay the full freight of COBRA. Thanks to the 50% discount, which I grabbed just under the wire, COBRA cost me less than Medicare does. We might note, however, that Medicare costs approximately eight times what I was paying for an EPO that gave me access to the best doctors and medical facilities in the Valley. Still. I’d have been uninsurable if I’d had to pay the full cost of COBRA.

Mercifully, I was already eligible for Social Security. Although I was forced to take it at a much-reduced rate—I’d intended to wait until I was 70, another six years, to collect Social Security—it paid several times the amount of Unemployment Insurance, without the hassles. The $2,400/semester the adjunct teaching pays would have rendered me ineligible for UI, anyway.

And, thank God, I became eligible for Medicare on the first day of the month after COBRA ended. Paying eight times what health insurance should cost for less coverage and fewer willing providers is less than perfectly desirable, but at least I’ve got some coverage!

Overall, it was a confluence of decent financial management, one or two reasonably intelligent decisions, frugal living, crucial government antipoverty programs, and incredible luck that kept me from spending my old age in a minivan. Even though things can be difficult at times, at least I have my home and my health. So far. My mother was right: I am blessed.

 

A Peek through the Escape Hatch…and other minor details

So tonight after half a day of teaching blessed souls who want so badly to do well in freshman comp (in spite of not knowing how to frame a thesis statement or write an idiomatic sentence), it was off to the new real estate course. It looks good. I enjoyed it, enjoyed the instructor, and came away feeling pretty upbeat. Very upbeat.

The textbook is around $65, but I can get a 10% discount with my faculty card. Natchurly, I didn’t have it with me this evening. Tomorrow I have to take the car to the repair shop, there, we hope, to fix whatever is making the ominous noise—that’ll be a pricey fix, you can be sure. So I won’t be able to buy the book until Thursday, when I’m back on campus to teach again.

Meanwhile, I made a little discovery: for those of us who are given to startling back pain, the amount of quinine in a can of tonic water may be enough to quiet the muscle spasms that give rise to that pain.

For the past week or ten days, I’ve been enjoying an ongoing storm of back spasms. They started in the neck and shoulder and by yesterday had worked their way down to the lower back, which I hate even more than upper back pain. So insistent were these spasms that I could actually feel a muscle in my back twitching. Ugh.

So of course I had recourse to the Hypochondriac’s Treasure Chest: to wit, the Internet. Googled “back muscle twitching.” And lo! It develops that a whole flock of neurotics suffer the same phenomenon. Many of them highly praise quinine.

Alas, though, some 1 percent of 1 percent of humanity has a dangerous sensitivity to quinine. Make that a life-threatening sensitivity. In response, Big Brother has taken quinine pills, which deliver a respectable dose, right off the market.

Well. In response to something. One message board contained a squib from a practicing pharmacist, who said quinine was not going to hurt you. The real story is that the patent ran out on said pills, widely loved by sufferers of those nasty leg and foot cramps that strike in the wee hours. Big Pharma, unhappy with this development, lobbied to have the drug banned. It’s now back on the market in a new, wildly expensive patented form, presently approved only as a malaria cure. So if you want it, you have to find out what it’s called and then find a doctor who can be persuaded to prescribe it for an off-label use, which is exactly the same as the previously on-label use for which it was prescribed for years. Yes.

Numerous comment posters touted drinking 8 ounces of tonic water about three to five hours before retiring. Various sufferers responded, always with one of two answers: it either worked like Jesus touching Lazarus or it didn’t do a damn thing.

Now I know I’m not allergic to quinine, having ingested more than my share of tonic water over the years. So it was off to the Safeway, there to grab a six-pack of little cans full of the stuff. And a bottle of Bombay Sapphire, not wanting to waste the trip.

The result?

One 12-ounce can of the stuff (abetted by a slug or two of gin) is definitely, unmistakably Jesus touching Lazarus. By the time I crawled into the sack, the twitching had stopped, once and for all. Not a single tic. And though the pain was still there, the gawdawful knife stab had abated enough that I could actually find a comfortable position to sleep. Crapped out around 10 p.m. and slept all the way through until 6 in the morning. That’s some kind of a record.

This morning my back still ached a little, but it wasn’t excruciating. Getting out of bed did not elicit a moan or a cry of pain. I was able to lift Cassie off the bed without fear of dropping her. And the pain has stayed at bay. In fact, it’s actually improved slightly. Right now we’re coming on to 9:30 and it hardly hurts at all.

Tonic water. Don’t forget the Bombay Sapphire.

🙂

Image: A bottle of Bombay Sapphire gin that is half full. Ben Efros. Creative Commons Attribution ShareAlike 3.0 License.

Doctored and Drugged and Summoned

So it was off to a specialist this morning, a pulmonologist recommended by a friend on the choir, who herself is an RN. He, I discovered when I got there, managed to get himself on Phoenix Magazine’s “Top Docs” list in 2011, for whatever that’s worth.

At any rate, his office proved to be very professional and efficient. They got me in to see him today when I called yesterday morning, which has to be some sort of all-time speed record for an American doctor’s office. At the Mayo, I couldn’t even get past the gate-keepers the last time I called–their phone answering lady just left me hanging, to suffer over the weekend and beyond.

He did some breathing tests and asked a wide variety of questions. Tentatively his theory is that it’s either a chronic bronchitis that began with a viral infection six weeks ago or is Valley fever. He’s redoing the Valley fever test, on the theory that antibodies often don’t show up until a month or more after the infection; however, when I said I’d tested positive in my 20s, he remarked that probably, then, this is not Valley fever. That notwithstanding, as long as he’s bleeding me anyway, he ordered the test.

He also is testing for a variety of other ailments and signs of asthma and allergies; next week he wants to do allergy tests.

Let’s hope he doesn’t decide I’m allergic to Cassie!

Never have had a problem with dogs before, though long-term exposure to cats gives me a chronic stuffy head. I had no idea it wasn’t normal for one’s nose to be plugged up until I left my husband and his houseful of cats. After I’d been away for a while, one day it dawned on me…hey! my head isn’t stuffy all the time. Since then I’ve avoided puddy tats.

At any rate, the new doc came forth with a packet of Prednisone pills considerably less powerful than the ones the Mayo’s ER doc gave me, and he said that yes, they would disarm my immune system, but not enough to cause a clinical immunocompromise. He felt that no matter what I might be infected with, the stuff would be safe to take in the short term.

He also thought I should start the antibiotic she gave me, but was puzzled when I told him she said I should do the Prednisone first and then if that didn’t work I should take the antibiotic. He said for acute bronchitis you’re supposed to take them together. And also swallow some Prilosec to try to control the bellyache these drugs will cause.

So in the course of two hours, I’ve gone from no drugs to three drugs a day

He said that even though the antibiotic is in the same family with erythromycin, which has caused some untoward effects in my body, 80 percent of people who have a bad reaction to erythromycin can tolerate this stuff. I pointed out that if a drug has a weird side effect, any weird side effect, I inevitably am gonna get it. He said if anything uncomfortable arises, just quit taking the stuff.

Meanwhile last night when I dragged out to the mailbox, what should I find but a jury summons.

Damn.

Actually, I don’t mind serving on a jury—or wouldn’t, if I ever got past the stage of wasting eight hours in the court’s waiting room. But the problem right now is that if I miss a day of class, my pay is docked, no ifs ands or buts. I’m trying to get the District to come forth with a written statement of that policy, but the woman in the District office the college told me to call can’t be bothered to return my call.

Ideally, I would like to get myself excused from this recurring hassle. But if I can’t get her off the dime, it is at least possible to ask for a postponement, and apparently you can even go online and ask for a specific date. So if I can, I’ll just push it forward to this summer, which at least would give a week or two on which to serve, in the unlikely event that I’m called.

People with PhD’s by and large are not regarded by lawyers as any client’s “peers,” so in all these years I’ve never made it on to a jury.

A friend of mine did, though. The judge told the jury to expect the trial to last a couple of days. Two weeks later it was still dragging on!

She was teaching, too, but at GDU no one pays much attention to whether you’re there or not, and so she at least didn’t get the financial shaft. And she taught poli sci, not writing courses, making it possible for her to send her friends to the classroom bearing videos to keep the kiddies busy.

I, on the other hand, will simply lose my paycheck if I’m forced to serve on a jury.

The other concern is that experience shows the various courts are using the same rotating call-up list. You get called for Superior Court, then City Court, then Federal Court, then the Grand Jury. A summons to the Grand Jury is really bad news, because you’re shanghaied not for a week or two but for many, many  months, during which you’re on call and have to show up at the drop of a proverbial hat to proceedings that can last for lengthy periods. So I can expect at least two and possibly three more of these little headaches to show up in the mail within the next few weeks. Goodie!

Well, a ton of copy awaits. And so, to work…

 

Is This EVER Gonna Go Away?

Up since 2:00 a.m. coughing and gagging. This is bar none THE worst respiratory ailment I’ve ever had. Have lost track of how long this had been going on because I’m too sick to think, but my sense is it’s been about a month or six weeks. I’m beginning to think it’s never going to clear up.

Guess I’ll have to call the crew at the Mayo again. Ugh! How I hate having to beat my way through rank after rank of gatekeepers to get at a doctor. Apparently they’re hired to block patients from talking to doctors. Then, whenever I do manage to get an appointment, the damn clinic is an hour’s drive away through homicidal traffic.

My neighbor across the street recommended her doctor. I looked up his practice in Healthgrades and discovered one of the partners was defrocked in Connecticut for recurrent drug abuse. Oh brother. When you’ve been thrown out of practice in a civilized state, what d’you do? Come to Arizona and open a new practice!

Onward to Angie’s List. Almost all the doctors with “A” grades from a respectable number of Angie’s List participants are in east Scottsdale, not a heckuva lot closer than the Mayo. The very few within a reasonable driving distance don’t take Medicare assignment…which is one of the several reasons I spent some $8000 on health-related insurance and care in 2011. The Mayo doesn’t, either: this means a) whatever they choose to charge above and beyond what Medicare and its private henchmen imagine is “reasonable,” you pay out of pocket; and b) they will not accept electronic payment from Medicare or from Medigap insurers, so you have to collect an endless stream of little $20 and $30 checks, drag them to the credit union, deposit them, and then disburse those amounts one at a time to the doctor’s office. You really never have any idea how much you owe and how much Medicare or Medigap owes, so you have a constant tab that you can’t clear off the books.

It is, in short, a plan designed to keep you away from doctors. If going to a doctor weren’t aversive enough, this complicated pushmi-pullyu system effectively discourages you from seeking care, because you just don’t want to get mired in it. Especially when you’re feeling bad.

Susan G. Komen vs. Planned Parenthood

So, what do you think about the flap over the Pink Ribbon set’s slap in the face to Planned Parenthood, wherein the Susan G. Komen breast cancer charity announced it was cutting off its funding to one of the major providers of women’s healthcare because (horrors!) it provides contraceptive care and ends unwanted pregnancies.

Predictably, it sure makes me mad as a cat.

Reproductive care—including decisions about when and under what circumstances one is going to bear a child—is a central part of women’s health care. Many more of us ovulate and get pregnant than fall victim to breast cancer. An organization whose mission is to save women’s lives ought to be able to get the message that there’s more to women’s lives (and deaths) than boobs.

In the past, friends have asked me to join them in Susan G. Komen “Race for the Cure” walks. I’ve gone along with them, even though I think it’s pretty silly to imagine that walking up and down the streets is going to cure cancer. In fact, despite all the money that’s been thrown at the problem, metastatic breast cancer is not a lot less fatal today than it was twenty years ago. I will admit, I’ve found the pinkiness and the stuffed animals vaguely offensive; more vocally radical women and articulate patients who claim this sicky-sweet motif infantilizes women and turns breast cancer awareness into a merchandizing opportunity have got something there.

Vaguely offended, however, is different from effin’ outraged.

I have walked my last Susan G. CKomen mile and donated my last Susan G. Komen dollar. If I have any cash left over at the end of this month’s budget cycle, it’s going straight to Planned Parenthood.

Join me if you dare!

 

Out of My Face, Google!

{Ugh} Mention that you’re having a bout with bronchitis, look up the prescription meds online before blithely swallowing any damnfool thing your doctor shoves at you, and you’re blitzed with ads for prescription cold nostrums and asthma treatments!

Damn, but I hate that! Am I the only neurotic who gets the galloping creeps by having Google peering over her shoulder all the time?

This is the worst bug I’ve ever had. My whole torso hurts from hacking. Last night I coughed until I couldn’t breathe, coughed until I was spitting up blood. Even standing in the shower til the hot water ran out didn’t help.

Finally gave up and used the albuterol inhaler she prescribed. It’s tricky to learn to use…but it did help. Was finally able to get to sleep around one or two ayem.

But I’m not takin’ that prednisone, dammit. It has some nasty side effects. One of my peculiarities is that if a drug has a weird side effect, I am going to get it.

She also gave me an antibiotic in the same class as a drug I’m allergic to and that, like prednisone, is given to tearing up your gut. She did recommend not taking it for several days, until we see if this thing starts to clear up. Despite an elevated white cell count, she still thinks it’s probably viral, which would mean there’s no point in making myself sicker with antibiotics.

Saw a study last night that showed albuterol is more effective than antibiotics in causing the cough of bronchitis to subside within seven days. Sure hope it works. This is the pits!

I’ve had so many prescription drugs make me sick that I’m very careful about what I’ll take. Doctors, in my experience, often don’t know what these things can do—they clearly don’t know or don’t appreciate the discomfort of the potential side effects, or they don’t care. In some cases, I’ve thought a doctor dissembled to trick me into taking something that made me sicker than the ailment. They’re heavily lobbied by drug lobbyists who come to their door to sell them on this, that, and the other expensive new concoction, and they don’t really have time to look up and understand what the stuff does. So they believe what the manufacturers’ reps tell them.

But to the subject at hand: I’d just as soon not have Google watching me try to figure out which prescription drugs I’ll take and which I won’t.

I understand they’re going to ramp up this strategy by linking virtually every device you use and tracking your every move. Makes me glad I refuse to carry a cell phone.

Cut choir last night—it’ll be a long time before I’m able to sing again. May be out for the rest of the season. Cutting the business group meeting this morning. Can’t cut class today, because I won’t get paid if I don’t show up, and I really need the money…especially with a new passel of medical bills headed my way. Fortunately, part of this semester’s scheme involves lots of videos. Tuesday the librarian kept them busy for both periods…thank god! No way could I have talked three hours straight. And amazingly, I had actually scheduled a video for today. So that’s decidedly what they’re getting.

Ugh ugh ugh! It’s after 7 and now I’ve got to run to get Cassie fed before M’hijito shows up with Charley.